Being the change

I have been reading about personal and organizational change, the ability to change and what is actually required to make significant changes in our lives. This weekend, I took the weekend off from reading and personal learning and, for the most part, did actually very little. In one way it was refreshing, but in another I feel guilty that I played over 5 hours of video games, watched a couple movies that I wanted to see (both are over a year old), and basically "wasted" time all weekend. I did make the bed, wash some clothes and create supper for my boy, but the rest of the time - well was ... wasted.
When it comes to significant change, the patterns that we get ourselves into are important. I feel that taking some time off every once and a while from the daily demands in important - to rejuvenate, reflect, and relax. Spending time doing things for yourself and resetting your internal compass through reflection is also vital to success. So the question remains - "why do I feel so guilty this morning?"
I think it is because of other peoples perceptions of how we should be spending our time. If my dad knew I spent 5 hours playing video games and watching movies he would be upset and address my priorities (even though I am 41 with children of my own). If my wife knew (she is away this weekend) she would be asking about all the little chores that I should have completed or that are still undone. While the perceptions of others is important to notice, we still need to do what we feel is right and what we feel is important. I am sure someone would say I have not been a great role model to my son for the past two days, but I hope the other 353 days of the year when I am working hard to support others will demonstrate to him (and his sister who is with mom) that you can't sit around an hope things happen - you need to shut the video game off, miss a few movies and work hard to get what you want. But I also believe that every once and a while it is ok to "waste" a day on yourself. Now where is that remote?